Be a Hero, Free Reiki/Advanced Energy Work Retreat

Have you ever felt like your world was completely going inside out? Where all the things you thought were your business and your responsibility to fix suddenly spiral 100% out of your control? Have you been investing all of your time, and energy outside of yourself, because it felt too scary to look within? Or maybe it was the kind of behavior you would not even consider?

This year was the 22nd anniversary of my whole life crashing… My first born survived suicide, and other near death events multiple times. Through that ordeal it felt like everything that I believed was crumbling in front of my very eyes, and inside every cell in my body. My whole life was devoted to my family. Every part of my days, and nights had one point of focus. My life was dedicated to creating a home, and life that was a loving, stimulating, creative, and educational environment for my family. I was very intentional from morning to night. From organic home cooked baby food since 1987, and extra curricular activities every day for any of their interests. Exploring the local forests of the Appalachian trail in outdoor excursions, educational museum outings, live music concerts from our local liberal arts college, all to support every need my kids had, to the best of my ability. Moving forward to 2001, I fell into the bottom of my barrel. Every single thing that I felt I knew about myself, about my goals, about my family life, about my existence was crumbling beneath me. Painfully, and to my astonishment my persona’s death lead to a transformational awakening that gave me the power to be more for myself and my children.

I started to embrace my spiritual gifts, because they were the only thing that was working in my life. My talented and beautiful daughter had completely lost herself. She forgot who she was. She was in a revolving door of emotional and physical self-mutilation. Also harming my son emotionally who witnessed the terror unfolding in our home. Her essence was taken away from herself, and from all of us. Desperation and tremendous sorrow scooped my baby girl to some far away land, with no sight of her spirited and fiery self. I had no spiritual teachers at the time, books, cassettes, or social media to consult with. There was nothing but me and god. I had nothing but a desperate hunger to help my first born, and my family to move through the horror we were all experiencing. When mental illness and addiction collide it is an ever consuming conundrum, to say the least!! I knew that I was the key to open a door. I had no idea what was on the other side of that door. But I surrendered to my higher power… effortlessly.

I bumped into the tremendous prejudice about addiction and mental illness, in our family, in our circles, society and most importantly within myself. I didn’t know anything about addiction or addicts behaviors. As my 15 year old daughter was in an excellent healing haven, nicknamed “the magic mountain”, by the clients and professionals working at the Caron Foundation. I began the humble journey to transform myself into a human sponge, and I started to learn, learn, and learn some more. It was a multilevel awakening, filled and weaved with many layers of surrender, complex trauma, aha moments, obedience, and a myriad of awakenings. Not only I was learning about addiction, I was for the first time connecting with shadow work by myself. Miraculous moments happened of divine guidance that was undeniable. I will never forget my ancestors waking me up because Jessica was trying actively to kill herself, and they wanted me to stop her. Many years later I learned the word, and what it was that I was embodying, I was/am clairsentient. That was just one of the “clairs” that I learned to work with and perfect. Little by little I began to trust my awakening process, my ancestors and guides. A sense of ‘knowing’ came over me. I had no idea how it could have gotten there. I was astounded and delighted, because those words, the knowing that I was incredulous about how it was finally working, and I could reach my daughter. There was no time for doubts, or energy to withhold what was effortlessly pouring from me.

More than two decades later I have been doing my very best to create a form of haven for multidimensional healing for folks that could not get whatever they needed out there. From the beginning the studio became a healing temple for me. I was the first to partake in its loving energies. And now, it is our healing and transformational temple. It started in my home, and for many years it has expanded into The Hive. It is my life’s work to hold space for all the seekers buzzing into the Hive’s door.

Uniting with, Hero In The Fight is a long time coming, to share the abundance of ways in which one can call home the inner sanctum within our hearts. Yes, there can be the ultimate peace and unconditional love waiting for each and every one of us, in search of everything we need. The Hive has been that space for the ones choosing to come in, and have the humility, and curiosity to say Yes for more. More understanding, more shadow work with radical compassion, more love, more security, more forgiveness, more healthy boundaries, and to allow our gifts to flow with ease and grace.

With true willingness to address kindly shadow work any person may open up all the doors they wish to, to create their own heaven here on earth. It is simple, and yet it is not easy to recognize, and take ownership of our shadows. That was a muscle that I consciously pumped every day to help my daughter to want to survive. And in the process of helping her I recognized all the deep work I had to do myself. She has been my biggest teacher. I had to face, and continue to this day facing, my shadow, much more gracefully now. Transcendence leads to spontaneous healing, and evolving into our highest potential. I have become a humble, and obedient guide for the ones in search to own their power. You are not alone doing the deep digging. We are all in this together. The journey is all about falling in love fully with ourselves, shadow and light, and the poetic beauty that the process allows us to emerge from. It is The Love Affair of our lifetimes!

There is so much beauty and vibrancy on the other side of deep shadow work dives. There is a whole life of embrace, so many amazing things to experience, and new people to be magnetized in a higher vibration of grace to be part of the ones willing to do the work, along side you. We are on a mission to Self-Compassionate-Empowerment. Our soul’s desire, here at the Hive, is to provide a smoother ride in your pilgrimage to Inner-Freedom. Are you in? Can you allow yourself into your own inner-sanctum? It is The Road worth taking, and receiving from.

Are You Ready for Your transformation? See you there!🙏🏽

Shadow Work Weekend - Beehive Mystery School Level 1

Level 1 Mystery 8th Month - Deep Dive with Shadow Work✨🕳🖤🪞🔥

Pennsylvania is delectable with it’s pre-Autumn atmosphere in the air!🍃 Friday night was our customary check-ins for the 8th month of the Beehive Mystery School level 1 gathering and training. In this small group there are close-nit women initiates only. After many years of facilitating this explosion of healing openings, and in this self-growth platform I can always humbling expect the unexpected, all around!❤️‍🔥This is the first mystery school under my tutelage with female initiates only😳. After many years I feel this full circle about it… The two official mystery schools that I have attended were both in the US. The first one was in California for 9 months around 2005. The second one was in Massachusetts for a 2 consecutive year program, also for 9 months each, in 2007.

What does 9 months have to do with mystery schools? The reason for the 9 months is primarily because it is a gestation time. It is a deep cocoon to dive into, and immerse oneself into the amniotic fluid of the emotional self, and explore a variety of multi-cultural modalities, ceremonies, teachings, loads of shadow-work and the invitation from the higher-self to transform oneself to a much, much better and elevated state of being. The element of water is associated with the Emotional Body💦. My format of mystery school is also a training as well, some are experiential only. All the seekers that are interested in my life’s work are definitely empaths, and healers in the closet, just like I was most of my life.

In the Beehive Mystery School level 1 the theme is unapologetic deep healing❤️‍🩹, learning to recognize the shadow and apply a myriad of effective practices and modalities to shift pesky and parasitic patterns. Many from our own past lives, and ancestors because we inherit them. The level of transformation is phenomenal and miraculous🦋… no other way to describe it.

I always go within to meditate and receive information about each of the weekends of training🧘🏻‍♀️. There is a frame or work for each of the weekends of level 1 and 2. And yet spirit keeps me on my toes to what happens and when🌪. There is a divine sacred appointment taking place with divine intelligence. The perfection of it over all is always to me mind blowing🤯, even if at the time I can see it, feel it, or comprehend it, it is humbling. And sometimes I don’t know. I simply show up and do what I am guided to do and then voila… magic strikes big🚀!

So like all the other weekends of training I check in and receive the downloads. I was super excited with the Saturday morning assignment to go to the mountain in my historic and enchanting town of Carlisle, Pennsylvania. This extraordinary hike to the top of the mountain is short and ascends quickly. It consists of huge boulders, one over the other creating a mountain. It was a grand playground for my children growing up, and then became a spiritual center for me to partake from, as I opened up myself to embrace the inner-mystic⛰.

The temperature was in the 80s, and clouds here and there making it very pleasant. I was very excited to share this special site with the initiates. Drum, rattle, sage, wing🪶, lots of water and lunch packed, and up we went. I began to listen to which spot to work with first. The lichen, amazing rocks hosting the lichen, and the lovely trees with its cooling canopy, were calling my attention since we arrived in the parking lot. There were a few folks sunbathing on the top. Among them were three older gentlemen volunteering and counting migrating and local birds for a local non-profit organization.

Lichen are long-lived, with some considered to be among the oldest living things. It is estimated that 6–8% of Earth's land surface is covered by lichens. There are about 20,000 known species. They are among the first living things to grow on fresh rock exposed after an event such as a landslide. The long life-span and slow and regular growth rate of some species can be used to date events, it is called lichenometry. Lichens grow in a wide range of shapes and forms. The shape of a lichen is usually determined by the organization of the fungal filaments. This is just a few of the things you may learn about lichen in Wickapedia. The earliest that have been studied are about 400 million years old. To me their energy is unlike any other. Since a young child I was very fond of lichen.

I could feel the presence of the fairies🧚‍♀️and the devas watching over us, as well as watching us with curiosity and delight as the initiates embraced the journey softly and swiftly. Appreciation of the ancient aspects and wisdom of nature all around us was and is always key to connecting to the plant medicine in this level🌎, opening up to the mycelium and all of the other plant medicine interconnecting with each other as this symphony of energetic activations. This is super nutritious to the nervous system💚.

With anticipation we embraced the shamanic journey guided by the drum. Time to journey… It brought up the sensations in their body and their hearts, particular messages, affirmations, clarifications, visions, and more! Opening up to one’s own intuition is one of the reasons for these kinds of sacred exercises.

Each initiate has its own signature way of how they operate with their own guides😇, as well as how they process and activate their innate gifts. It is my job as the facilitator to listen to that distinctly and to clarify any messages that they receive, and direct them toward a pragmatic way of anchoring in the messages or teachings into their lives. In addition I connect the dots in other areas of their lives. It is always very practical information and a lot of times life changing. This is where the shaman and the psychic within me intermingle.

We completed the share and walked up the mountain to meditate by the grand view of the valley and the other side of the mountain as well. We communed with all of the vultures that were flying around. We sat and laid down taking in all of the visual and the energetic beauty. After a while of basking in the sun🌞 I ignited the work by opening up a vortex and inviting the initiates into it.

The Native Indigenous presence from the land kept showing up💓. The energy was very present. I Immediately recognized the need to honor their frequency by orchestrating an atmosphere of gratitude for all the land caretakers and honoring what they did for hundreds of years.

After initiating the basic breathwork, centering, connecting all of our energies together, expanding it to the center of the valley, which was all part of building the vortex, I activated gratitude and unconditional-love as I called the ancestors💞. Immediately three vultures came from different directions forming a triangle outside of the vortex. The buzzards were part of the whirl pool creation of energy in front of our hearts and eyes. They came from three different points from a triangulation and created a circle as they flow into the vortex. Super cool! Three is a very sacred number to me, and in numerology.

Helping the healing of the Native Indigenous people here in Central PA has been part of my journey for many years, even when I had no idea of why I was doing the ceremonies and vortex activations I was anchoring⚓️. That is also part of healing the land. The atrocities that have been committed against the Indigenous peoples have a frequency. This frequency lingers in the land, buildings, structures or in people’s bodies. Since I have Indigenous Native blood myself from South America it has become a calling to help the transmutation of these energies into a higher vibration. We are blessed with many sites in our own back yard with such potent energies. Potent after the healing and clearing takes place.

There were other powerful and poignant times in which a hummingbird hovered closely, a hawk, and a fascinating clicking kind of sound circulated us while all of this action was taking place. Our eyes were closed, but the clicking sound was not very close. And yet we could hear it moving around us. The bird-watcher that stayed behind to observe us, and partake in the energetic yumminess told us later that the mysterious sound came from a raven. It was a form of clicking. It was a magical show of sharing their energetic gifts, their sounds and their beauty.

Coming into a completion I thanked Great Spirit and the presence of Eagle with a song in our ceremony and energetic excursion. And to close I played the Native American flute to bless the space and all the happenings for hundreds and hundreds of years… to bring it love and peace, and a red tail hawk came right in front of us and lingered for the time of the playing. It was exquisite. The gentleman stayed with the expectation of witnessing something interesting and magical, he told us later. We chatted a bit. He was bearing witness to all the bird action taking place with delight, as he felt the purpose of something grater then the mundane. He invited us to climb up again soon. He is there daily… amazing!

We are blessed to have the support of all of these sacred sites, energies and animals. They will be felt for a long time as the initiates dove deeply into shadow work on Saturday evening into Sunday. A full day of deep research and getting tremendous clarity for the most poignant ceremony to gracefully and purposefully address the minutest details of their shadows. No stone left unturned!! The ceremony following was super powerful and poetically stunning. The center of the Chartres Cathedral’s six petal rose with its seven spiritual principals crowned the shadow-work ceremony. It was truly glorious!

These weekends of training are always such a tremendous gift, for the initiates, for myself, since I consider myself to be right along the initiates… always in the mystery. As it unfolds, to the land, to the ancestors around us all, and to the collective at large. These processes keep unfolding for us far beyond the weekend itself. #TogetherWeRise #TogetherWEcan #beelove

Shamanic Reiki Level 1 Training & Magic

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Just waking up this morning to the reality of what a splendid full, intense, and awakening, Shamanic Reiki level 1 Training showed up as. Fourteen eager souls in the training, the largest number of folks that I have ever had on a level 1 Reiki training!! There were many men as well as women hungry to pursue a better life all around, balance their inner-feminine and inner-masculine, and new ways to increase their quotient of emotional intelligence.

Every single training brings a divine theme to the whole of the group dynamic and what is to be healed, discovered and implemented in a highest ways. This time was overwhelmingly potent in relationship to healing father issues that pains the heart of men and women, as well as mother issues. Sexual trauma was another ginormous theme. We are talking deep, deep stuff that messes with our every choice in life. Ancestral healing is very common in my line of work, and took a driving seat this weekend💓.

So you may ask: “What kind of Reiki training is this?” Well, I may answer:👉🏽 As a shamanic/esoteric facilitator the reiki aspect is the vehicle. Annnnnd if we don’t heal and let go of all of the things that makes us not receive healing, growth and a healthy self-esteem no training in the world would work! No way Rose!!! Folks don’t feel deserving of doing the work, the resistance is too loud in our heads. We are sinners and not deserving to empower ourselves and embrace our voice. Which voice?! The voice that is waiting from within to let you know how remarkable and amazing spiritual warrior you are. The voice that is relentlessly waiting for you to own it, to except it, infant to celebrate it!🌀

One of the most special things in this training was that there were three children, one young adult and the other two adults. One was my beeloved son Andrew. One was the daughter of a level 2 Beehive Mystery School initiate, the other was the son of a colleague space holder Ron Morrett. Wow! how to unpack this…. Such a deeply moving experience! My son has been for the past nineteen years living in a mystery school like atmosphere at home. No way around that. Andrew is such a natural healer and empath from a toddler age. No joke. It was a humbling experience for me to have him trust me as his spiritual teacher, and to bear witness to him showing up in this capacity to himself. What a joy…💝 The young woman is another person that I absolutely adore. She is such a potent way-shower. Vanessa is an implacable mother and a power house. The young man is such a light! At the age of 19 his old soul is showing the way…. No doubt about it! It was very inspiring to have all of them there🎯

There were three couples in the room😳, I have never had one couple, never mind 3! Which brought up the potency of working with the divine masculine and the divine feminine in many levels. The energies here were potently about support for one another, holding healing and spiritual evolution for the other partner, soooooooo beautiful!🎊 One of them was so taken by his wife’s growth working here in the Hive on a personal level, and for how her professional life is taking off, that he felt the calling from within to create a succinct and deeply spiritual life style at home, as well as embracing ancestral and other forms of healing for himself. It is the ultimate and I dare say sexy for women to witness men fully authentically embracing their shadow, healing it, and shifting their reality🙌🏽.

I had 4 PHENOMENAL assistants: Shamanic Reiki Masters (since March 2022) and Mystery School initiates. Their light so blinding in many forms and dimensions. Suzie is so powerful and solid. She just exults her yearning for serving beautifully! Addie was impeccable as a wayshower and manager. Her own dear hubby was attending. She held herself with such grace and gratitude to be bearing witness for his own empowerment journey. It was magical for us all to witness! Ruthie brings in the fullness of her heart and gets down and dirty with all of the teachings and embodiment. She is not wasting any time. She is doing it! Shawn simply listen to his intuitive heart and came over in absolutely PERFECT timing both days to facilitate the Sacred Divine Masculine in action. Yes…. His inner feminine informed him of when to active his fullness and then the masculine aspect of him did the deep healing for two women in the group. It was crazy amazing for us all to feel it. He embodies this balance masterfully. We were all receiving the healing as well. What a weekend!🚀

The demonstration of surrender to a greater new reality was outstanding!!💥 My heart is beyond full as I woke up this morning processing the beauty of all of the tears that were shed from sexual trauma by many, as well as emotional a physical trauma. The sisterhood and brotherhood that can be birthed from these intense trainings and sacred explorations are in a whole other order. We are ready! We are doing it! It is happening! The respect that each one showed for one another in the circle was astronomical!!💫

There two teenagers in the training. Oh My Goddess! Their exquisite Old Souls…❤️‍🔥 One of them an exquisite young woman shared in the final circle how she was amazed with everybody's rawness and tenacity in a way that they embraced their wholeness with all of the shamanic practices that we anchored to let go of the martyr and victim parts of the self. She shared gratitude for all that we are all doing for the collective healing. She is exquisite!✨

One person actually changed the tonality and quality of his voice! We all noticed that on Sunday morning. This person was speaking from a space of inner-confidence and inner-trust. It was palpable!

Boundaries played a huge role as well. One young woman actually build a fence in her own property the day before the training. That in itself lead to deep wisdom for us empaths🏹. We can’t fly if we don’t ignite safety from within. Very important!

This is just some of the many things that rolled over the weekend. We all came together in the deepest form of integrity with the self and from a space of authenticity. I deeply acknowledged the courage and the tenacity to be embraced, as each one showed up with such clarity in the circle. That level of courage gets amped-up more and more as the shares went on. It is absolutely sublime to be in the midst of such courageous men and women.

I LOVED taking the time with each exquisite spiritual seeker to share my unconditional-love and witnessing of their process in our graduation ceremony. Folks work deep and hard with themselves with all that I offer. My witnessing and sharing my feedback of their deep workings is important… I feel.

If you are interested in going down and dirty, and face to face with your shadow then you will fit in with the programs, workshops, classes, trainings, Beehive Mystery School (In person ONLY! Soon coming up 2023) & the Beehive Membership (Which is an online form of the mystery school) which open its doors this week FOR A FEW DAYS ONLY, in August 2022. For more information please reach out at jaque@beepresentwellness.com. We live to serve here at the Hive! And we LOVE to bee of service!🐝✨🙏🏽

Community Sustains Spiritual Growth

Some naysayers have said to me through the years: “Why are you doing another training?” or “Why are you coming up with another offering?”

 The truth is since the beginning of my spiritual awakening in 2002 I recognized that obedience, and implementation of the assignments that I was given was imperative every step of the way.

 A HUGE theme was to create community from the very beginning. Reiki shares at my home, facilitating 10 years of energy shares at the Unitarian Universalists of the Cumberland Valley in Boiling Springs, attending energy shares in Gettysburg, creating a wellness fair in UUCV, and monthly Red Tent for women in my home for a few years, at a local café, and one at the Women’s Center at Dickinson College even.

 One of the symbols of Bee Medicine is of buzzing together.

 So, you see, my yearning to create an online platform to create a safe community, to share weekly lives to allow personal growth for the members and myself, to connect with depth, authenticity, being sometimes long distance and yet feel right at home with one another is here. Great Spirit keeps poking at me to learn more technology, to unearth more of my god giving gifts, to share them in this moment of deep and wild shifts in our beloved planet, and honestly it is to rise on a personal level and to help others to do the same.

 One of the most blissful things in my life was discovering sisterhood. Being a single child was comfortable. And it was all that I knew. In my late thirties however that inward flow became a fountain of non-ending love affair with deeply engaging, giving nourishment and receiving nourishment, from extraordinary women in the US and Canada that I am honored to call my spiritual sisters.

I was always very intuitive as a child. I never wanted anything to do with my spiritual gifts however. Surrendering to this first ever trip abroad without my family, with women only, and for spiritual purposes cracked me wide open. It was a brand-new world within to feel and explore. The Maltese islands are unforgettable!

 Getting to be in ancient sacred sites with one purpose only… to surrender to the most divine aspects of myself and being in communion with the land, as well as weaving all the energies from all the past lives. Feeling from our depths, all the “remembering” taking place with each and every one of us. The instant bonding that were being birthed were astounding to me. The love eternal that bubbled up from our souls, pouring to and from each other was overwhelmingly radiant.

 In Malta and with my new sisters I got to unleash for the first time EVER my inner-little girl. Wow… I didn’t even know she existed inside of me, waiting patiently for me to show up for us. To free her from self-hatred, self-doubt, self-judgement, sabotage, and much more. Every moment of every day in Malta was, and still is, cherished by me.

 Our last circle in the hotel, which was our last ceremony and celebration are imprinted in my mind as well as in my heart. An outdoor fabulous feast and tear-filled shares. There were over 20 of us, of all ages and cultural embodiments. And yet at the airport as we were finally splitting to our diverse locations in the US more and more tears flooded us with such gratitude.

 This first trip to Malta put a delectable taste in my mouth. A hunger in my belly for creating sacred community, ceremony, togetherness, and share the most compassionate exchanges EVER. After that I wanted a mystery school. My inner-child had now a voice and she was setting an intention loud and clear to the universe to create that level of experience. I wanted to have deep connections with human beings that may only happen when the heart is moved to such level of unconditional-love that sucks you into a state of the highest awareness.

 And so I did manifest two different official mystery schools in my life. Mind you I never envisioned having the hutzpah to create and facilitate one myself. Years of resistance showed futile. I am now very obedient with the guidance that I receive. In my case however the experience is for both women and men. From the beginning of facilitating this sacred work the men folk have been showing up for me to hold their hands through the fires of life. And I would not change that ever. It is an honor to be of service to all that call upon me.

 The depth of connections that I see with my initiates, clients and students is purposeful and a HUGE part of my intentions to shift the collective one heart at a time.

 I sobbed on closing circles in my first mystery school in California. That longing to create a spiritual web was the foundation for everything I have ever done here in Pennsylvania since 2003. I am still close with sisters from that awakening time.

 No matter how many years past sisterhood and brotherhood never ends. It keeps maturing and aging with wisdom and grace. Even when I don’t see my siblings. I feel them, and I am eternally grateful for the wonders ahead. Community Sustains Spiritual Growth

 Some naysayers have said to me through the years: “Why are you doing another training?” or “Why are you coming up with another offering?”

 The truth is since the beginning of my spiritual awakening in 2002 I recognized that obedience, and implementation of the assignments that I was given was imperative every step of the way.

 A HUGE theme was to create community from the very beginning. Reiki shares at my home, facilitating 10 years of energy shares at the Unitarian Universalists of the Cumberland Valley in Boiling Springs, attending energy shares in Gettysburg, creating a wellness fair in UUCV, and monthly Red Tent for women in my home for a few years, at a local café, and one at the Women’s Center at Dickinson College even.

 One of the symbols of Bee Medicine is of buzzing together.

 So, you see, my yearning to create an online platform to create a safe community, to share weekly lives to allow personal growth for the members and myself, to connect with depth, authenticity, being sometimes long distance and yet feel right at home with one another is here. Great Spirit keeps poking at me to learn more technology, to unearth more of my god giving gifts, to share them in this moment of deep and wild shifts in our beloved planet, and honestly it is to rise on a personal level and to help others to do the same.

 One of the most blissful things in my life was discovering sisterhood. Being a single child was comfortable. And it was all that I knew. In my late thirties however that inward flow became a fountain of non-ending love affair with deeply engaging, giving nourishment and receiving nourishment, from extraordinary women in the US and Canada that I am honored to call my spiritual sisters.

I was always very intuitive as a child. I never wanted anything to do with my spiritual gifts however. Surrendering to this first ever trip abroad without my family, with women only, and for spiritual purposes cracked me wide open. It was a brand-new world within to feel and explore. The Maltese islands are unforgettable!

 Getting to be in ancient sacred sites with one purpose only… to surrender to the most divine aspects of myself and being in communion with the land, as well as weaving all the energies from all the past lives. Feeling from our depths, all the “remembering” taking place with each and every one of us. The instant bonding that were being birthed were astounding to me. The love eternal that bubbled up from our souls, pouring to and from each other was overwhelmingly radiant.

 In Malta and with my new sisters I got to unleash for the first time EVER my inner-little girl. Wow… I didn’t even know she existed inside of me, waiting patiently for me to show up for us. To free her from self-hatred, self-doubt, self-judgement, sabotage, and much more. Every moment of every day in Malta was, and still is, cherished by me.

 Our last circle in the hotel, which was our last ceremony and celebration are imprinted in my mind as well as in my heart. An outdoor fabulous feast and tear-filled shares. There were over 20 of us, of all ages and cultural embodiment. And yet at the airport as we were finally splitting to our diverse locations in the US more and more tears flooded us with such gratitude.

 This first trip to Malta put a delectable taste in my mouth. A hunger in my belly for creating sacred community, ceremony, togetherness, and share the most compassionate exchanges EVER. After that I wanted a mystery school. My inner-child had now a voice and she was setting an intention loud and clear to the universe to create that level of experience. I wanted to have deep connections with human beings that may only happen when the heart is moved to such level of unconditional-love that sucks you into a state of the highest awareness.

 And so I did manifest two different official mystery schools in my life. Mind you I never envisioned having the hutzpah to create and facilitate one myself. Years of resistance showed futile. I am now very obedient with the guidance that I receive. In my case however the experience is for both women and men. From the beginning of facilitating this sacred work the men folk have been showing up for me to hold their hands through the fires of life. And I would not change that ever. It is an honor to be of service to all that call upon me.

 The depth of connections that I see with my initiates, clients and students is purposeful and a HUGE part of my intentions to shift the collective one heart at a time.

 I sobbed on closing circles in my first mystery school in California. That longing to create a spiritual web was the foundation for everything I have ever done here in Pennsylvania since 2003. I am still close with sisters from that awakening time.

 No matter how many years past sisterhood and brotherhood never ends. It keeps maturing and aging with wisdom and grace. Even when I don’t see my siblings. I feel them, and I am eternally grateful. I honestly believe that it’s because of the continuous community nurturing I was able to grow emotional muscles to withstand these crazy times.

 I LOVE to see women and men respectfully, compassionately, and unconditionally falling in love with themselves, and witnessing the same all around them. And from that space of purity embracing sisterly and brotherly love. It is a sight!!

Embracing Peace

What is it to come from a space of peace? Most of my life I thought that the word peace was a flat an empty concept never to be obtained.

Coming from a contained space of being an only child to a narcissistic mother, and a disconnected father, peace was not something that came along, unless I was sitting in my sacred shower having transcendental experiences.

I simply listened to this inner voice telling me to sit cross legged in the shower stall, and transport myself to my own personal waterfall. My earliest recollection of that was around 6 to 7 years of age. I still have this practice very dear to my heart! 

I never understood what I was truly doing. I just knew that that was the only place that my mother could not occupy. I knew that the sounds were drowning EVERYTHING around me via these divine molecules of water that were completely immersing me in the space of peace. I didn’t know that I was sitting in Easy Pose, as we call it in Kundalini Yoga. I was simply listening to my heart and could feel myself rejuvenating, reprogramming my thoughts, and stepping into “nothingness.” I didn’t know that I was in astrology a triple fire. My sun sign is in Sagittarius, now that I moved here from Brazil my rising is in Aries, and my moon is in Leo. I have the three flavors of the fire signs. And the element of water translates to complete inner and outer peace to me, as I ground in this delectable element. Water cools down my inner-fire. Very shamanic if I may say so…

Because I was not very conscious of the value of what I was doing for a long long time I forgot about my shower practices. Throughout my teens into adulthood I suffered with IBS on and off on a weekly basis.



Embracing the Mystic within explained to me an enormous amount of who I truly am. It has made me trust my corkiness. It made me embrace deep compassion for my foibles, my lessons, and all the folks that are my ‘challenge teachers’ in real life. It has allowed me to initiate my understanding of myself and extend the unfolding of it with balance. And as I trust these processes for myself I completely trust these processes for all the people that I work with, and that I am in contact with.  I guide folks to understand their lessons and their greatest gifts, which a lot of times they completely pass by and don’t recognize whatsoever. I feel that this is one of my superpowers as a shaman. 

Believe it or not peace can reside as a spiritual principle in the most difficult realities. Working with these concepts not just as words or states of being has allowed me to see, to feel, and to anchor the potency of them as consciousness itself. It’s not something I have to go out hunting for, or seek in others. It is something that I fully open up within my sacred feminine ‘nadi’ to receive, to explore, in the deepest parts of me. And this way I surrender to peace when I choose to. To create the daily practices to be able to make these kinds of choices are then part of my responsibility to myself, and to stay highly functioning as a mystic, so that I may be in service to others. Letting go of control then means that I am fully in control.

I feel so peaceful writing this down and feeling the flow of all of the thoughts and the times in which I was very different, when I hooked into the chaotic and traumatizing moments in life. We all have them. As you read these words you might be also feeling into the ones in your life that have rocked your world. Now I am able to humbly bless every single one of those moments in authentic gratitude for the woman that I am becoming due to those teachings. Challenges are not going to stop because I have these practices in my life. And the trust that I can anchor whatever I need from within at any time is a tremendous comfort.

Everybody can achieve the space of inner freedom to embrace the beauty of peace. There is much exciting work to be done that brings you home to yourself. And you can be very intimate… as I call it, in bed with peace!✨❤️‍🔥🙏🏽

Love One Another

It’s time to activate higher love!

We have been participating in a powerful shakeup in our lives, witnessing the media with tremendous atrocities in the midst of a pandemic. Our outer and inner worlds are in transition to embody huge changes. A humble open mind is imperative to become the ‘new you’. Listening is a skill that requires our ego to step aside. As we are becoming more and more global, and having the ability to be able to listen to one another is key to our personal, as well as spiritual evolution. We are now global citizens if we wish to or not. We are now able to excess the world literally in the palm of our hands.

The third agreement from the book The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz is the “Don’t Make Assumptions.” This book has been revolutionary to thousands of people around the world. It has been the foundation of the Beehive Mystery School for many reasons. I have had a series of spiritual awakenings through the years utilizing in part this little book. We are not capable of walking on other people shoes; culturally, financially, geographically, professionally to name a few.

Listening to others and their needs, listening to their disappointments, listening to their pain and grief, even if one cannot identify or understand where they are coming from is as important as listening to people’s wins. As we learn to not impart our own judgement to the words that are coming to us, we may change the world as we know it, to a kinder, sustainable, exciting, a true limitlessly abundant new paradigm. We are the midwives into the Aquarian Age. There is no accident that you have decided to be here in the planet at this time in the grand shift of our earth mother.

When you listen do you stay fully present to each and every word? Or the little voice inside you takes over with solutions, and scenarios that may be completely out of reach, or misguided for the circumstances of that person, or situation at hand?

Listening with empathy is needed more then ever today. What is your relationship to the energy of ‘empathy’? What is empathy? From Wikipedia: Empathy is the capacity to understand or feel what another person is experiencing from within their frame of reference, that is, the capacity to place oneself in another’s position. Sounds ease to do, and yet one can only get better at it.

“Don’t Make Assumptions. We have the tendency to make assumptions about everything. The problem with making assumptions is that we believe they are the truth. We could swear they are real. We make assumptions about what other are doing or thinking — we take it personally — then we blame them and react by sending emotional poison with our word.” ~ The Four Agreements

There is no easy answer. We are all in this together. Compassion with purpose is on! Are you in? Let’s stretch ourselves to an emotional intelligence status. We can do it and surprise our neighbors with such courage, strength and joy. Boldly going where human beings are meant to be going to…. Unity!

Blessings upon your Blessings,🐝✨🙏🏽
Jaque ~ Har Gopal Kaur

Life Changing Solstice Intruspection

Happy 2019 Winter Solstice!🌞🙌🏼

As I dive deeply into this end of the year I have been contemplating and doing a mental inventory of 2019, and beyond. I have been doing so much unearthing of old challenging patterns that I have inherited from my ancestors. I have blessed all kinds of clarity that I have chosen to embrace. My heart keeps getting lighter with each breath as I walk forward. Wahe Guru!

Plenty of ownership of old ways of being that are no longer in alignment has been looked at. Letting go of stifling emotions has been such an organic gift to my being. Anchoring peace about many people and situations that surround me have been part of my personal journey and growth.

Humbling is the walk. Grace rays come down from the energizing sun to shower my heart with healing. My womb gets to smile with flowing forgiveness for myself and others. Blessed be the walk-in which we all find ourselves in. I wish you all much surrender into Love Eternal. That is our legacy. As uncomfortable as we can be, sometimes, unconditional love is possible, it is attainable. Even if it’s for one day, or one hour in a day. It’s a practice..... a blessed one.

What a beautiful invitation to envision 2020 with a clear and concise 20/20 vision. Jupiter is hanging out with Capricorn this whole New Year. Are you ready? Do you know what that means? Please google it. There is a lot of great info about this timely and holy event in our history. Yes.... we are creating history for ourselves, our lineage/descendants, and our community at large. Every act, every activation is now the foundation for our own blessed masterpiece whatever that may be.

So the sun is becoming more and more present from now on. And yet there is still the winter, and it’s stillness gifts in this part of the world. We get to partake in these two presents from Mother Earth at the same time. The sun may bring more energizing clarity as the stillness of the winter allows us more time to purify, and engage with our truest desires and inspirations. Let’s make this a divine time with our hearts and our sat nam, aka our truest selves/identities.

May the long time sun shine upon you, all love surround you, and the pure light within you guide your way on. Sat Nam! Blessings upon your blessings!🌞🐝💞🙏🏽